Friday's Rantings

Waking up this morning with varied items on my mind...accomplished so much yesterday but still have some ways to go...however I am thankful that a brotha is able to do the things he has to...

I was out with a few friends the other night having a few libations at the "dawg pound" where boys meet, greet and sometimes sleep (lol)...when a fellow blogger www.sebpro.blogspot.com
said my face looked familiar...and sure enough it took nothing more than two minutes to figure out who we both were...it was great...he's the first blogger I've met since I commenced blogging in Jan 2006...AA's film was being touted and shown to the masses at the film festival in Decatur...anyone and everyone who has a chance should see it...the brotha sure has skills and I'm proud of him...

Yesterday...I messed up...I have this friend...a special friend...whom I haven't seen since Jan...due to circumstances...however we talk almost everyday...enough of the background --yesterday he popped by the house...I met him outside...told him I was entertaining another friend (female) of mine that also popped by earlier...I then invited him in...and he came in but I didn't introduced him to the two friends that were already in the house...he introduced himself...I just continued fixing drinks....my special friend left shortly after getting there...I could tell something was wrong...before this ends up as a novel...let me say...in hindsight and in conversation this am with special friend...Actions always speak louder than words...I was wrong and I admit it...firstly...I didn't greet him with a hug, a kiss or nothing when I first saw him....also I should have been the one to introduce him to my friends...the interaction between my female friend and me...can be deceiving at times...we have it like that...but just good friends...nothing more...nothing less...I know I'm on the back burner now with special friend...

Today is a new day...I'm moving diligently to correct my wrongs and move on...but before
I do so...my moonlighting author Jay Jay...sent me this .... so I'm sharing it with you...

Girls

are like apples

on trees. The best ones

are at the top of the tree.

The boys don't want to reach

for the good ones because they

are afraid of falling and getting hurt.

Instead, they just get the rotten apples

from the ground that aren't as good,

but easy. So the apples at the top think

something is wrong with them, when in

--reality, they're amazing. They just

have to wait for the right boy to

come along, the one who's

brave enough to

climb all

the way

to the top

of the tree.

QUOTE OF THE DAY
“That which we persist in doing becomes easier, not that the task itself has become easier, but that our ability to perform it has improved.”- Ralph Waldo Emerson

Destination...on my way!

Whew! its been rough but its been okay...now that I've recovered from the holidays and the festivities...it's time to return my focus back to the real world...shucking and jiving and doing what makes paper --work...later on I'll be catching up with you hombres for drinks and convo...at the spot.

"Just like seasons, the purveyors of my heart all had reasons" while typing...this thought... just entered my mind...I feel some writing come on with this thought...I guess getting ready to travel back to the atl brings back one or two memories...good ones...talk about being shaken and stirred...it certainly puts a smile on my face...

My daily regimen of bloggers...check them out...

Blogger DLB...www.thenewderrick.blogspot.com is a brother always on the move doing his thing and at the same time encouraging like minded peeps to unite and share...such a great thing in a mind so young and full of energy and smarts...check out his site and participate somehow in some way...

Blogger...ProfessorGQ...page is always upbeat and dishing out soul food for the mind...keeping you updated on news...muses...and the utterly confuse at times...lol...Check out his page and enjoy... http://professorgq.blogspot.com

My good friend, blogger, historian and soon to be aristrocrat of blogsphere's noble estate(lol) www.savvy101.blogspot.com always provide you with his personal opinions and take on various topical subjects...this educated brotha is on point...always...if you go to battle with HRH...please be prepared to wear full armor from head to toe...lol

For the latest in news concerning us for us....check out this blog...it's well written, informative and certainly from time to time the icandy placates the soul...http://rodonline.typepad.com/
from what I can surmise...the author of the page...well let's put it this way...is more than just a phine chocolate drop...

Well that's it from me today...catch up with you guys tomorrow...have a great day and shout outs to all...especially WaltT, Nelson, Percy and Jerry!


QUOTE OF THE DAY
"Faith in the ability of a leader is of slight service unless it be united with faith in his justice." - George Goethals

Happy Easter!

From my family to yours...Happy Easter...attending church---a la fashions--- was like attending the ultimate red carpet event...the stars showed up in their Sunday best and some...it was beautiful to see beautiful people clad so nicely...however...it would be even nicer to know that this day is the beginning of renewing Christ in our hearts...for then the greatest commandment to love thy neighbor would truly bring peace to our world.

Soon- to- be author Jay Jay....leaves us with these thoughts to ponder and take heed:

Do more than belong, participate.

Do more than care, help.

Do more than believe, practice.

Do more than be fair, be kind.

Do more than forgive, forget.

Do more than dream, work.

There are two kinds of people in the world:

those who make excuses and those who get results.

An excuse person will find any excuse for why a job was not done,

and a results person will find any reason why it can be done.

Be a creator, not a reactor.

To speak ill of others is a dishonest way of praising ourselves ... let us be above such transparent egotism.

The Search is Over...

I woke up this morning and I'm blessed...today for me...is one of those sad/sweet days...one of my high school car pool buddies is being buried today...he was a good guy...with a good heart...that got caught up in tragedy...may his soul rest in peace...

After today another hectic week will be over and I look forward to Sunday and Monday off...Easter is always a happy time...for my family...we get together, socialize and just be in the presence of one another...our third and fourth generations don't have an appreciation for family gatherings...they're present but yet you see them in their own little worlds...as if they're bored and would rather be somewhere else...the little ones enjoys the treats and their little cousins...but it's the teenagers that I worry most about...when I see them...I wonder what this world has in store for them and what is to become of a legacy started by my grandparents whom most of them never knew...

I leave you this Holy Saturday with deep thoughts...of the mysteries in finding myself...

I took time in the dark of night
searching but not finding for whom I seek
Is it you or is it me?
I ponder and wonder in fear
as I look in every unlit corner and tear

What is it that I seek when I find it
all these hours of the night
Is it you or is it me?
Am I lost...in this eerie of darkness
among all this travesty
I touch and feel ... the only heartbeat I hear
rings loudly in my ear

The break of light consumes the darkness
and I came face to face for whom I sought
Is it you or is it me?
I looked and smiled for the end of darkness
has finally seen the light...and
in the light I finally found --
me.

taken from the thoughts of DA Copyright ©2006


QUOTE OF THE DAY
"It's a sign of mediocrity when you demonstrate gratitude with moderation." - Roberto Benigni

One's Reality

One must believe in oneself,
one's dreams and one's ambitions.
One's mind and torso must be in absolute
tranquility, self assured and graced with
the tolerance of understanding---
"a cup runneth over"...

For to love--one's inhibitions must be released,
one's openness must be open to change -- and--
one's courage be strong to commitment so that
a valley of pure innocence be allowed to flow
within...

Then the courtship begins
esculating in minutes, hours, days, weeks
towards the moment of reality ---
I love you...

taken from Love the Series...by DA



QUOTE OF THE DAY
"A wise man should consider that health is the greatest of human blessings, and learn how by his own thought to derive benefit from his illnesses." - Hippocrates

Simply Put...

Like an old school James Brown rendition--I feel good--it's early am....there's a hearty breeze coming off the ocean...you know the kind that talks to you...not the whispering kind...and we could use it as it's been hot and humid lately... Happy Holy Week to all in the struggle...

Simply put today...I offer you a Short Course in Good Human Relations by way of my good friend and soon to be author (he doesn't know it yet)-- Jay Jay -- whose writings are simply inspiring and educational:

The six most important words:
I admit that I was wrong.

The five most important words:
You did a great job.

The four most important words:
What do you think?

The three most important words:
Could you please. . .

The two most important words:
Thank you.

The most important word:
We

The least important word:
I

QUOTE OF THE DAY
"We should be taught not to wait for inspiration to start a thing. Action always generates inspiration. Inspiration seldom generates action."- Frank Tibolt

Darn...Tagged It...Again

Hello my name is...
DA

I was raised in...
Nassau…Miami

The reason you are reading about me is...
courtesy of Derrick L. Briggs http://thenewderrick.blogspot.com as tag fever has hit blogsphere

Right Now I'm working on...
the introduction of Aroma 100% Fruit Juices in the islands, a model search competition and a novel

The first thing I do in the morning is...
say the “Our Father” prayer

The last thing I do at Night is...
relieve built up tensions

My Momma always said...
“God bless the child that has his own”

I love it when people...
are honest

I hate it when people...
are complacent and this becomes their acceptable norm

If you ever see me walking down the street ask me about...
what it takes to perserve the sexy (couldn't resist PDiddy --lol)

My notable run-in with the law...
The intake of too many Moet & Chandon on New Year's resulted... in my SUV flipping over four times and me ending up on the operation table for a broken arm…later charges were assessed by the law of the land for driving without due care and attention

This one time at band camp I...
no comment for it wasn’t at band camp…

Yo, you see this scar, I got this when I...
was enjoying the decadence of rough copulation

The last time I swore I'd never drink was after a Night of...
stripping a la fresco...lol

Future Projects and Plans...
hosting the Ball World to an underground top secret event in Paradise…Fashion on the Greens Designer Showcase…opening a men’s speciality boutique

And before I leave I'd like to give a shout out to...
Walter, Percy, Nelson, Raymond, Ptate, Barrett, Gregory, Larry, Jerry and Mike, Tecla, Gwen, Dwayne, Lanardo, Amy, Pilgrim, Wayne and to all the great masters of the keystroke in blogshpere that reads this

The Ball

This whole underground "Ball" scene fasinates me...to be quite honest I feel sort of out of place, as I've never heard of them before now...perusing various blogs has peaked my interest into this world...I've never attended one and from what I've read it seems these events go on for six hours or more...where I'm from gay life is underground...and the one club that did events --of course, not on the scale of a Ball Room scene-- has closed...so here I am in this early morn contemplating on my "ifs"... so in order for my "if" to change ... some research has to begin...so I now have find out more about these Balls and attend one....which means reading more blogs or finding one that just centers around them...This caught my interest for I love to produce events...I have produced events for the most part of my adult life here in the islands and in ATL...so now...I've added yet another project to my list...

Someone whom I've known for a spell...asked yesterday...what would it take for me to love again...He continued...why do we look in all the wrong places when love is right here, right now in front of you...he was getting a lil personal there---go figure a brother was hitting on me--and his implications didn't do any good but add insult to injury--he calls me a rolling stone that gathers no moss...

At first I thought it was a dumb ass question for it was obvious...what it would take...simply a three letter word...for which I answered and then bidded good bye...but in hindsight...it takes more than just having that three letter word...in which...dedication to and preservation thereof plays a greater role...

Now, back in the day we may have hooked up but he was doing his thing and I mine...He's educated, a professional and expert in his field, an entrepreneur, nice but sometimes shady, but overall a good guy...but just not for me...now it was not until recently I found out from his best friend that he always had these "feelings" for me...which is why I couldn't get any play from the best friend...lol...

Enough said...have good day!

QUOTE OF THE DAY
"Judge thyself with the judgment of sincerity, and thou will judge others with the judgment of charity." - John Mitchell Mason

An Excerpt...

Rise and shine it's Monday morning and the blues are starting to appear...the weekend is over
and my working duds are pressed ready for me to slip on and do what I do for the paper... I start this week as I do all with optimism...and Lipton's

Today, I share with you and excerpt from my pending yet-to-be-finished unpublished book...

Writing as an outlet has given me so much pleasure and I marvel at times the things that I write. I was always told forget your past and move forward with your future but the past is my inspiration for all my writings. I can now look back at some personal penned writings and smile when I think of all the hurt and pain I’ve been through and seeing it expressed in poetry brings about a certain healing. This is my life and I offer a part of me to you.

It’s been a long time since I’ve penned my words on paper or computer for that matter. My days now are dismal and spirits low for I was caught up in happiness in a foreign land with a foreign man and for the life of me I truly did not see sadness creep in and obliterated what I thought, and quite frankly it was obliviously only me that thought that I had finally found home and there was no place like that home, our happy home. But that’s another story, another time with an insanely sane educated brother that in retrospect made common sense seem uncommon. It always seem to be that the more my feelings are dampen and hurt this repress aggression that I keep locked inside only erupts when my relationships have ended and there’s a need for me to grieve and thus leads me to vocalize in writing as therapy.

Sitting by the window seat onboard Delta flight 6356 in seat 7A making my way to the country of my birth I stared aimlessly at the triangular stream of never ending white beams shooting out like a prism as they penetrated the white cloudy sky. Without even realizing its beauty and the transforming awesomeness of the moment, I was lost in my thoughts and invisible tears. Why? I continually asked myself am I in this position again. You would think that on the verge of forty my years of experiences would have taught me about vulnerability and its affects on the human soul. Love has this incredible tranquilizing ingredient that intoxicates the soul and unbeknown to you it permeates your soul and causes you to do things that you would not do ordinarily. So we landed at 6pm after traveling over the most beautiful emerald green seashore your eyes would ever see, the land of my home, my comfort zone. A poem I penned a long time ago in my newbie stages popped in my head just now.

Many stories are told
and yet,
Many are forgotten.
Many keys are turned
that never reach their
destination.
Many fireplaces are lit
but yet,
so many dampened.
Many useless words are said
but action counts.
Interference may occur,
and the glass is shattered.
The love was miscalculated
but your sanity is still
yours.


QUOTE OF THE DAY
"Liberty means responsibility. That is why most men dread it." - George Bernard Shaw

Just a Thought

The root of my being
though created in love
is said to be sin

Vileness is strewn
Hate is villified and still
I struggle outwardly to be accepted

Interperted words became
the foundation for pundits and religious
to ostracize choice
Is it choice or is it my being...
whose root is love

taken from thoughts of DA

QUOTE OF THE DAY
"Gratitude is born in hearts that take time to count up past mercies." - Charles E. Jefferson

IF...You

In my days of old...tag was considered quite an adventurous game...plus you got to actually touch the person whom you tagged in the flesh...now in the age of technology...I opened my emails and hence before me a message that I'd been tagged by blogger Waddie at http://professorgq.blogspot.com whom I find to have very interesting and informative posts...
I for one...don't like these types of emails...mainly because tagging someone for me is personal...however...I will obliged Waddie for I think he's good people...but please Waddie all these replies from your mass mailing has created an influx to my In Box from people corresponding to each other whom I don't know...a hint...next time change the format...thanks...

Today's post is due entirely to Waddie...so here are my answers:

If you were to be the opposite sex for one day, what would you do?

strut the avenue Champs Elysees in four inch Valentino’s

If you had to name the most difficult thing about being a teenager today, what would you say?

the advent of choices

If you had to name the most embarrassing moment of your life, when was it?

the night before my external exams in my final year….I found myself trying to get away from my drunken abusive father at 3 am in only fruit of the loom undies down the street ending up at a schoolmate’s house…not only was this embarrassing but I had to endure the ridicule of those last few weeks of school from that bladder mouth who expounded on my personal and private trials

If you had to name the most overrated actor in Hollywood, who would it be?

Tom Cruise

If you had to name the one personality trait that you have tried the hardest to change in yourself, what would you say?

procrastination

If you could go back for one minute to the Garden of Eden and give Adam advice, what would you say?

take your time before you bit “that” apple…as “options” will soon be available

If you were to name the best “I told you so” you ever got to deliver, what was it?

I’m one of those persons friends always seek for advice…so it would have to be the time when a truly trouble but beautiful friend sought the comfort of my advice…not only did I give the appropriate advice but I predicted the course of action that would be taken by the other half should my advice not be followed…guess what…my troubled but beautiful friend…called me and preface the conversation by saying…”You told me so”….the moment was classic!

If you were Madonna, what would you do for your next publicity stunt?

clad myself sparsely in body paint and perform outside St. Peter’s Square in mock protest to religious hypocrisy and pundits

If you could have a lifetime 50 percent discount in any single store at your local mall, which store would it be in?

Hermes

If you could have one more pet, what kind would you get, and what would you name it?

german shepard…..icandy

If you could have God perform one miracle today, what would you want it to be?

A cure for Aids…for the lost of good friends and great people has taken it’s toll

If you could spend next New Year’s Eve doing anything, what would you do, and with whom?

church…a quiet am…with moet & chandon…and my prince….

If you were to set your country’s immigration policy, what would it be?

Apply legally…or be deported after your visitors visa is up

If you were given the power to settle the issue of gays in the military, what policy would you set?

democracy is intended for equality so if you meet and conform to the requirements then serve...

If you could have one person you have lost touch with call you up tonight and invite you to dinner, who would you want it to be?

Torres, a massage therapist in Panama….ummm

If you could change on thing about your love life, what would it be?

commitment ….the preservation thereof

If you could have prevented one book from ever having been written, which book would it be?

[Bible...too many bull-headed, self-serving interpretations...it's just a book] – I agree wholeheartly with Professor on this

If you have to name the best music album ever recorded, which would you select?

for me it would not be one particular album as there are far too many icons with beautiful songs that capture experiences that I could identify with….Roberta Flack…Etta James…Aretha Franklin…Smokey Robinson…Nate King Cole...The Temptations…Patti Labelle…wow it’s so many

If you could have one thing made out of pure gold, what would you choose?

my mother…to always recapture the moments of the all those… “why’s”

If God were to whisper one thing in your ear, what would you like Him to say?

"Take heed my child….for you know you have sinned….but your sins are forgiven”

QUOTE OF THE DAY
"The love of democracy is that of equality." - Charles de Montesquieu

Unfinished

Sitting here in my chair, writing for me for you...ahh...it feels so good...thank God...I'm alive and breathing--- libating on Lipton, inhaling the freshness of the sea off the slight breeze through my window panes...

Why is it that the older we get the more people we know die...when I was younger...death did not become me as often as it is now...I find myself in a perpetual state of readiness for it...everytime the phone rings I say a "Hail Mary"...

Yesterday...in my out and about...I saw a man...his age not so easily recognizable as he was unkempt...and in need of personal grooming and attention...now my background is in fashion and scouting beauty... so hence my fashion senses were stimulated as I tried mentally to do a mental makeover...the face features of this man under all that unruly hair was model angular...and his nose was straight...so I knew...this man is good looking... if only....I'm considering my next project you can tell...

I've been encouraged by and thanks to a post I read from blogger www.savvy101.blogspot.com to eat right and exercise...so I figure I'll get my lazy butt up...not really lazy but have given myself so much reasons why I can't....wrong--- right...there's no such word as can't...to not exercise regularly or go to the gym...so...starting this week...I'll get my exercise bug on for eight weeks...to see if any improvement can be done with this old body...

Okay...I leave with this good day with a poem ...titled "Unfinished"

I trod these roads
unknown and unsure
in search of life
not destiny--for destiny is a surety
and life is to be lived

I awake each day
to the muses of life
unravelling experiences
good, bad and ugly

I want love
but my want is not
reflective of my need
and my need seems to be
transparent and not ambiguous
as my feelings..

taken from "Intimates" by DA
Copyright ©2006 DA


QUOTE OF THE DAY
"The recipe for perpetual ignorance is to be satisfied with your opinions and content with your knowledge." - Elbert Hubbard

Contemplative

Have you ever had that moment in the midst of chaos, routine going-ons in your ardor to accomplish certain tasks that seem beyond reach...when through it all..in that moment..you find yourself smiling...for no reason and you can not fathom...why

This happened to me in the midst of maneuvering traffic...thinking of my what to do list, family, bills, the hectic job etc...then it happened...I smiled...a warm smile...emanating from deep within...I felt relieved from all my burdens in that moment and my mind was void for a minute and all I could think of was happy thoughts...and people...and places

So here I am sitting contemplating my yesterday...as I usually do...trying to guage my reactions or non-reactions of yesterday...I'm trying real hard to associate that moment of peace with some event...but alas...there's none to be found...it's at profound times like these I know that spiritual being takes over brings me to a realization...that everything is going to be alright...


QUOTE OF THE DAY
"Love the moment, and the energy of that moment will spread beyond all boundaries." - Corita Kent

Missed Me...I'm Back!

Okay...I'm back just for a lil bit and some...I've been missing in action lately due to a number of reasons -- which includes the bug laziness...but I'm back nevertheless...This spring forward time change has surely and unequivocably messed up my flow and my mojo for a minute...

Today marks my 63rd post in blogsphere since I started on my b-day Jan 12...I didn't realize how much I can write talk...whew!....okay so a brotha needs to take a break from this marathon of words and thoughts...I'll let you know when the break starts...

My ex girlfriend and the mother of my son...had to undergo surgery last week Wednesday...so I've been actually tending house as we would say here...since her release I've literally...actually been doing husband duties -- minus the sex -- let's not get twisted here now....She's recuperating fine and until my break I'll be doing --my act of kindness....after all she is the mother of my child and still holds a special place in my heart...even though she has a boyfriend...she still loves my cooking and the way I take care of house...needless to say her boyfriend is not too happy right now...he has no visiting rights when I' m around...which has been 24/7....

On another note....how long does it take after a breakup with someone you loved for over a year to date...help a brother out here...does one get serious in six months with another brother...this post reeks of bisexuality...maybe I'm twisted...for sure!

April 1st, I thought I would fool myself and try to run in the annual Parkingson Foundation charity run/walk 6k race....I did fool myself I came in tenth overall and third in my age division...It surely was April Fool for me...I surprised myself but I'll tell you...my legs know their age...and it's a bitch... when here it is---Tuesday---I'm still in pain....

This week my friends make a special effort to do something nice for someone...no matter who...expecially your enemies....I hate to use that word--enemies...I prefer people who are
at the bottom of your list...okay as my son would say...peace out

QUOTE OF THE DAY
"No act of kindness, no matter how small, is ever wasted." - Aesop