For This is Christmas...

Since mid summer my life seemed to be spiraling away slowly, eating at my core bit by bit. My movements can be compared to the energizer bunny. Before then, I had some semblance of balance although there still remained the loneliness, the kind of loneliness that creates a void only the heart can heal. Spending some time with me was good, it gave me time to refocus my perspective and reinvent a new path even though I still brood over my breakup of nine months.

This past six months surely has tested my reserve and my capacity to deal with stress, and anxiety. The journey has taken me in and out of hospitals trying to understand why and how life’s mystery can strike you down leaving you defenseless and dependent. Never before like it is now did health care play a pivotal role in my everyday life. Never before was I so involved with understanding the complexities of internal diseases, the why’s and what for of different medicines. My dearest friend, my pillar of Rome, my religion of hope --- has proved to me what strength, faith, belief and love of God can conquer.

This day I pen these thoughts is Christmas day, surely a time for families to get together, to put aside differences, to forgive and to cherish each other. Our family members are the initial persons who help shape us into who we are. You see, I come from a dysfunctional family riddled with past unkind memories and now this day, my family is split. It’s Christmas but it’s not, it’s just another ordinary day and my pent up feelings are still mine.

My gift this day is life --- the life of the other half of my nable string --- for I was able this day to say Merry Christmas!

All things are possible through Christ, our Lord.


QUOTE OF THE DAY
"I do not feel obliged to believe that the same God who has endowed us with sense, reason, and intellect has intended us to forgo their use."- Galileo Galilei