Lexus Decatur...A Special Friend
It’s was three and half months since we first met but six and half months since we began getting to know one another…he was special mate…not a lover or boyfriend…but special…when we initially met…I had just broken up with my partner…and a brother was hurting and pining badly for the love he called his own…riddled with issues and suppressed anger it just wasn’t fair to get involved with this special mate…he agreed that we should go this route…we couldn’t put a time on getting to know me and I him…for I was here and he was there…he was through with guys that say one thing and later on didn’t know what they wanted…leaving him emotionally spent…he would become my Lexus Decatur…
I missed him since our last meeting in January…he was special, our moments together were special…and most importantly we clicked somehow…in someplace within for us both…still friends though…but special friends…countless emails and international phone calls everyday…so you could imagine my excitement when I was finally able to put together a few days to see Lexus Decatur…and board Delta bound for the ATL…He would be in Louisiana for work when I arrived that Wednesday…but he would be back in the ATL that Friday…I called him as soon as I got settled that evening to let him know that a brother was in the flesh and on Georgia soil…and that I can wait to see him on Friday…this gave me two days to filled with anticipation…so I made plans with friends to go out either lunch, drinks, dinner or a visit…
We talked later that afternoon on Thursday…as usual…and apparently his work in Louisiana was ahead of schedule and he would be coming back to the ATL Thursday evening instead of Friday…that was good news…I thought…however…I had already made plans with my friends…for the evening…so we couldn’t get together…yes I know he’s special and I hardly get to see him…and really and truly he was one of the reasons I took the time to come to the ATL…but it was just to late to cancel on my friends…my intentions were to spend some time with him beginning on Friday…
The last time we spoke on Friday…Lexus informed me that he was having dinner with some co-workers after work…and he would call me afterwards…to be honest … I was put off by that…but I understood…the most important thing here is ‘time’… I didn’t know what time he would be finished … and that would mean I’ll be sitting around the house waiting on him…so when my housemate and good friend…invited me to dinner…I accepted...I guess this is where it went wrong…for I never returned home until 2 am the next morning…when Lexus called me later that evening…to say he was home…I told him I was in the streets with my housemate and my ex best friend…and I would call him when I got home…I never anticipated staying out that late but it happened and I’m sure he was put off…this was a bad start and would define the nature of our non meeting each other for the rest of my stay…everything sort of went downhill from here…for we never caught up really with each other besides two brief encounters one at his house and one at mine which was a disappointment to him...
Needless to say the nature of our relationship is in jeopardy...the one thing about us is that we communicate very well together but while I was there...it was the one thing that was sadly lacking at least on my part...I dare say...for reasons of any backlash when Lexus reads this submission to the blog...I say this because I still at the time had issues with my ex...also I saw my ex twice while I was there...some things had to be put to rest...Although Lexus is a kind, considerate, intelligent, supportive hunk of a sexy man...he's not going to play second fiddle to my issues...I needed to sort my situation out...before I could continue to be special with him...if he's available...those words stung and still linger in my mind...
I like him for so many reasons..but I know I've disappointed him...and maybe 'time and action' is the key here...and the willingness of both parties...he's always been civil with me and accepted my calls since I've returned...but I feel he's more guarded now in our conversation...and not as carefree and animated as our conversation used to be...I call him and send him emails every now and then ... but somehow I get the feeling that he's not available--at least--not to me...
QUOTE OF THE DAY
"We make a living by what we get, we make a life by what we give." - Sir Winston Churchill
I missed him since our last meeting in January…he was special, our moments together were special…and most importantly we clicked somehow…in someplace within for us both…still friends though…but special friends…countless emails and international phone calls everyday…so you could imagine my excitement when I was finally able to put together a few days to see Lexus Decatur…and board Delta bound for the ATL…He would be in Louisiana for work when I arrived that Wednesday…but he would be back in the ATL that Friday…I called him as soon as I got settled that evening to let him know that a brother was in the flesh and on Georgia soil…and that I can wait to see him on Friday…this gave me two days to filled with anticipation…so I made plans with friends to go out either lunch, drinks, dinner or a visit…
We talked later that afternoon on Thursday…as usual…and apparently his work in Louisiana was ahead of schedule and he would be coming back to the ATL Thursday evening instead of Friday…that was good news…I thought…however…I had already made plans with my friends…for the evening…so we couldn’t get together…yes I know he’s special and I hardly get to see him…and really and truly he was one of the reasons I took the time to come to the ATL…but it was just to late to cancel on my friends…my intentions were to spend some time with him beginning on Friday…
The last time we spoke on Friday…Lexus informed me that he was having dinner with some co-workers after work…and he would call me afterwards…to be honest … I was put off by that…but I understood…the most important thing here is ‘time’… I didn’t know what time he would be finished … and that would mean I’ll be sitting around the house waiting on him…so when my housemate and good friend…invited me to dinner…I accepted...I guess this is where it went wrong…for I never returned home until 2 am the next morning…when Lexus called me later that evening…to say he was home…I told him I was in the streets with my housemate and my ex best friend…and I would call him when I got home…I never anticipated staying out that late but it happened and I’m sure he was put off…this was a bad start and would define the nature of our non meeting each other for the rest of my stay…everything sort of went downhill from here…for we never caught up really with each other besides two brief encounters one at his house and one at mine which was a disappointment to him...
Needless to say the nature of our relationship is in jeopardy...the one thing about us is that we communicate very well together but while I was there...it was the one thing that was sadly lacking at least on my part...I dare say...for reasons of any backlash when Lexus reads this submission to the blog...I say this because I still at the time had issues with my ex...also I saw my ex twice while I was there...some things had to be put to rest...Although Lexus is a kind, considerate, intelligent, supportive hunk of a sexy man...he's not going to play second fiddle to my issues...I needed to sort my situation out...before I could continue to be special with him...if he's available...those words stung and still linger in my mind...
I like him for so many reasons..but I know I've disappointed him...and maybe 'time and action' is the key here...and the willingness of both parties...he's always been civil with me and accepted my calls since I've returned...but I feel he's more guarded now in our conversation...and not as carefree and animated as our conversation used to be...I call him and send him emails every now and then ... but somehow I get the feeling that he's not available--at least--not to me...
QUOTE OF THE DAY
"We make a living by what we get, we make a life by what we give." - Sir Winston Churchill
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