Another Love gone Bad...
The fresh cool breeze coming from the ocean this morning revitalize my senses...I felt at peace with nature on my run in the sand...the calming silence of the moments I spend with me and nature is so refreshing and it gives me a great perspective on the day and my thoughts...
I'm booked to go to LA in a couple of weeks...I'm really looking forward to it...my last time there I caught the guy I was seriously dating...dating someone else...he walked right by me and a friend at the club...as he never expected me to be in town...funny thing though...his date recognized me (I never met the guy in my life) but it obviously told me he saw my photos at "A's" abode...so "A" turns around and let go of the guy's hand...and tried to make small talk with me...I'm fuming at this point...but he wouldn't have known...for my demeanor never changed...
I told him to have a good night and my friend (drop the linen and stop the grinning) went into the club for a minute...I wasn't really feeling the club so we went outside and walked to the car... "A" pulls up to the car...with his date in the car...and tells me...we need to talk...and I'm like yeah yeah...then "A" says like...right now...and I was like...No...so my friend told me to get in the car and we went home..."A" drops his date somewhere...must have been close by...as when we got home and just opened the door..."A" pulls up...so my friend tells me...he doesn't want him in the house...so I need to handle my business...and he went inside leaving me to deal with some bullshit that I was not ready for...
Some background...sexually so far...there have been only two mates that have turned me out, leaving my toes curled and my eyes crossed...both of them are clean cut, educated-- got their shit together bad boy types...the only difference really between the two are their body types.
"A" has a somewhat controlling nature and doesn't take shit from anyone least of all any guy he dates...he knows how to man handle a man...lol...anyhow getting back to the story...
"A" wanted to go for a drive, I refused so we sat outside...and I didn't say anything...so he wanted to know what I was thinking...and I'm like...It's over--no explanation needed, you have your life and I have mine...at that point I was so emotionally spent and distraught...and in times like this...I just need to be by myself... but he insisted on talking to me...and then he touched me on my hand...it was so repulsive and I let loose...oh...did I let him have it...when I was finished he grabbed hold of me and kissed me so passionately...I was weak....
At the end of my trip...it was really over...I had two weeks to deal with him, our conversations, advice from my friend, my heart and mind...my mind won...and once again my heart lost...
QUOTE OF THE DAY
"People who ask our advice almost never take it. Yet we should never refuse to give it, upon request, for it often helps us to see our own way more clearly." - Brendan Francis
I'm booked to go to LA in a couple of weeks...I'm really looking forward to it...my last time there I caught the guy I was seriously dating...dating someone else...he walked right by me and a friend at the club...as he never expected me to be in town...funny thing though...his date recognized me (I never met the guy in my life) but it obviously told me he saw my photos at "A's" abode...so "A" turns around and let go of the guy's hand...and tried to make small talk with me...I'm fuming at this point...but he wouldn't have known...for my demeanor never changed...
I told him to have a good night and my friend (drop the linen and stop the grinning) went into the club for a minute...I wasn't really feeling the club so we went outside and walked to the car... "A" pulls up to the car...with his date in the car...and tells me...we need to talk...and I'm like yeah yeah...then "A" says like...right now...and I was like...No...so my friend told me to get in the car and we went home..."A" drops his date somewhere...must have been close by...as when we got home and just opened the door..."A" pulls up...so my friend tells me...he doesn't want him in the house...so I need to handle my business...and he went inside leaving me to deal with some bullshit that I was not ready for...
Some background...sexually so far...there have been only two mates that have turned me out, leaving my toes curled and my eyes crossed...both of them are clean cut, educated-- got their shit together bad boy types...the only difference really between the two are their body types.
"A" has a somewhat controlling nature and doesn't take shit from anyone least of all any guy he dates...he knows how to man handle a man...lol...anyhow getting back to the story...
"A" wanted to go for a drive, I refused so we sat outside...and I didn't say anything...so he wanted to know what I was thinking...and I'm like...It's over--no explanation needed, you have your life and I have mine...at that point I was so emotionally spent and distraught...and in times like this...I just need to be by myself... but he insisted on talking to me...and then he touched me on my hand...it was so repulsive and I let loose...oh...did I let him have it...when I was finished he grabbed hold of me and kissed me so passionately...I was weak....
At the end of my trip...it was really over...I had two weeks to deal with him, our conversations, advice from my friend, my heart and mind...my mind won...and once again my heart lost...
QUOTE OF THE DAY
"People who ask our advice almost never take it. Yet we should never refuse to give it, upon request, for it often helps us to see our own way more clearly." - Brendan Francis
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