Memories

I am—who I am—today because of past experiences. When I take stock of those experiences…I’ve come to realized that I’ve had a rich and blessed life…the result of my choices have left me with…quite a few emotional scars…one or two regrets…and…a whole lot of memories. This just got me thinking … I wrote a poem about memories…I’m looking for it as I write…it was a sad time in my life…it was January …on the anniversary of my grandmother’s death…the month of January is very significant in my life…not only is it the birthday month for mama and me…but it’s a month that both my grandparents died and was buried…wait a minute… I found it ….have a read:

Take your memories,
bottled them in your heart,
treasure them each day,
for they are nurtured in love.

Take your memories,
as death has no boundaries,
which love does not conquer.

Take your memories,
which lie within the depths of your soul,
claim them for they are...yours.

Copyright ©2006 DA

It’s funny though…I titled the poem “B”…at the time I couldn’t find an appropriate title that I liked…so … I titled it just “B”… the first initial of someone special back then…who lifted my spirits…and made me smile.

The sermon yesterday was on repentance and forgiveness…two actions I need to do more of...by no stretch of the imagination am I perfect…I’m no angel…but yesterday got me thinking about memories and all those folk out there that I’ve come in contact with…those I’ve wronged … those that wronged me…so I said a special Our Father and Hail Mary…and asked God to help me as I move forward to always be honest and sincere with my interactions…with folk.

A love interest in DC once told me…I was young in the life then and he was a seasoned player….that I’m a very nice and lovable person…confused and yet still yearning for life…and then he said something so profound that it took me years to figure it out…I’m letting you go out of my life so that you can find yourself…your not ready to embrace true love…He said I was shallow-- void of love right now…and couldn’t see how deeply he loved and cared for me…he was not about to be taken for granted and advantage of…I told him I was in love…but he knew and I knew that was not so…my excitement thrived on the hunt back then…

At the time I didn’t know it and couldn’t see it…I was immature in love and life…frivolous in fact…but he did the best thing in the world for me…he set me free to experience life…Today, I thank him…my true friend…I’m grateful to have him in my life…he’s always been there for me…either by phone or email…When I think about him…he remains a mystery somewhat to me…all these years he still loves me and has always pointed me in the right direction and gave me sound advice through all my testaments…I know he reads my blog…so today…I want you to know I appreciate and I’m blessed to have you in my life…Ptate…your one of my memories I truly treasure…